*Smiles*

Alright, after a series of serious and emotionally stressful posts, I'm finally HAPPY =)

I got a new haircut. My hair, though chopped off, looks stunning. Talk of self absorption huh!! Anyway, there is One good reason behind all this. And that is that I have been obsessed with this whole "My Hero" idea!

I had a lot of people asking who this "Hero" was! To some, I did not reply. To others, I just said whatever came to my mind. Why? Because "My Hero" is very close to me. It all started with a little poem I wrote. .. "Brown eyed, a man so strong...."

He is strong. Protective. Deep. Honest. Innocent. And not to forget.... a Hero... My friends find it funny. They do not know that its not a figment of my imagination. He is there. Right here beside me, each time I close my eyes. He is there when I cry alone in my room. He is there when my hair falls on my face. He is right here with me as I type all this.

This thought has been driving me crazy. It keeps inspiring me to do better every day because, you know, after all... he is the Hero... and I will HAVE to match up to his standard. Not that I'm way down... I just need to step up a little.

Anyway, I can go on and on about this Hero of mine. But I will restrict myself to just this much. I like the whole mystery thing which reminds me of my pre-boards. Other than that... I am in love with life.

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Now Playing: I Will Come To You | Hanson

Darling, Come The Dark

Sometimes, I break down.
I am not able to find a way out.
I am lost at times.

Sometimes, I seek closure.




I find it in your voice.


And then I know something... that I will never disappear. I will be right here, standing tall, before You and fighting the winds until they revert back.


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Now Playing: Happy | Bruce Springsteen

Come Home To Me

5:15 p.m.

"It is not so easy to watch you walk away."

"I know. I could see that in your eyes. But just know, that by the end of the day, I will come home to You."

"I know.. .. .. .. .. .."

"I will... Don't worry!"

"I wait for that day. I don't like driving alone. I want someone by my side."

....... ....... ........ ............. ................

"You there??"

"Yeah! I know you did not like it when I went away.. But I had to go! And you know that. Please, don't be so worried!"

"Let it be this way, always."

"It will be. I promise. I will be by your side all our lives."

"I want you to sit right next to me in my car as I drive. I want our kids to be seated at the back and trouble you. I want them to be all over you."

"You want them to trouble me all day so I come to you at night and complain??"

"No.. so that you get so tired that you come to me and tell me that you're tired... and I give you a tight hug... and then you fall asleep... and I know you're smiling..."

"Hmmm..."

"And then I'd watch you sleep... When I'm done with that, I sleep myself. I want that day to come real soon."

"It will. I promise."

"I just cannot watch you go. Please don't ever go away."

"I won't. Get this straight... the day I go away would be the day I leave this world... And I know you have tears in your eyes."

"You sing very well... Beware.. I'll make you sing every now and then!!"
"Oh no!! Shit!!.. (laughs)... Anytime!! Listen, I will have to hang up now. Work! Alright?!?"

"Alright. And yeah... thanks for today"

"Shut up!! It was all worth it... and You... don't have to worry about anything.. We'll be great. I know. 'Cause I have faith in my God... He listens to us!.. Right??"

"Yeah..."

"Right????"

"Yeah right!!"

"Now, baby, I'll go. I can hear your brother calling you."

"Yeah.. I'll give you a call a little later. Bye!"

"Buh-bye.. I love you baby.. don't worry!"

"I love you too! Take care!"

"Bye!"

"Bye!"


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5:30 p.m.

They hung up. He wiped his tears. She saw her hair fly with the wind and dropped a tear. She missed him. He missed her too!


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Now Playing: Watch Over You | Alter Bridge

P.S.: I am in love with this song!

Phantom of Guilt

Sometimes, my pen stops working but when I give it to someone else, it starts writing again.

With eyes closed and mourning the night
The demons waiting to be fed on me
All of the world's weight in my eyes
With nothingness to rule and guilt kill me.




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Now Playing: One Last Breath | Creed

*I'm looking down now that it's over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in His grace
I cried out heaven save me
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say
Hold me now I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down *

Demolished

After a very long time, I'm extremely sad. So sad that even tears won't come out. So sad that I don't want to speak anything. I don't remember the last time I was this sad!

See, I told you... Winters are never very nice to me! They're gloomy. They somehow succeed to demolish each time. And it's not a very nice feeling.

I had never hated walking alone so much. I had hurt someone I love so friggin' much! And right now, the last thing I would want to do is have a good sleep. I can't have one now!

I wanted to vent it out. Thought it'd be good if I blogged about it. Nope! Not working!

Sorry! I feel as if I am falling apart. As if I'm going and just going to a far off place.

P.S.: I miss Drishti. I wish she hadn't had to go so early.

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Now Playing: Broken | Seether ft. Amy Lee